“I keep writing this caption and it never seems to convey the love that I feel for Elliot. This is the perfect baby son made me a mom. Hausburg wrote, “He will always be the greatest gift I have ever received.”
“There is so little I remember from this past year…but I remember meeting you and holding you like it was yesterday. Your love was the greatest thing that I have ever experienced in my entire life. Tiny, I will always be there for you. I can’t wait until we meet again. Happy first birthday Elliot Angel ❤️.”
Hausberg and her husband were the first to share the space. heartbreaking news Her stillbirth on December 21, 2021.
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“Ish and I lost Elliot Angel Soto’s son. I gave birth to him stillborn at 37 weeks. The reality star shared a photo of the memento and wrote that she was not allowed to leave the hospital with her beautiful baby boy. It’s true that there is no greater love than mother’s love. Losing a child is the most devastating pain.
“Everyday, I wake up and realize that I will never be able to hold him or kiss his in this life,” she said. “I am totally and utterly devastated. I love you, I miss you, my perfect little Elliot ❤️👼”
Hausburg posted an April message to her Instagram Story. It included a picture of a negative pregnancy result and the words, “Trying for a baby is hard.” The only thing I wanted after Elliot’s death was to have a live baby one day.
“Seeing this negative result again…and again…re-breaks my heart all over,” she continued. “We were able to get pregnant with Elliot the first time, so this is extremely difficult, confusing, and frustrating. I was a fool to believe in myself this time. “I feel completely defeated.”
The reality TV personality said, in a separate text, that she would not tell me to “relax and let it happen” because 1. It’s a lie. I swear I’ve heard it 100000000.
“2. She continued, “Teaching someone to relax doesn’t make them relax.” It just makes them feel bad about not being relaxed. 3. This is literally not the way it works.